The First

So this is the first day and they all say, they all say it'll be hard the first day. But I can't seem to function for some reason, knowing everything won't ever be the same ever again. 

But I'm happy, and I'm happy to know that my family is as close as ever even if Max annoys me sometimes. 

I guess, I just guess I'm not very good with change. 

Here's to all- Poem

They spoke of hunger

They spoke of fear

They spoke of wishes

They hoped were near

They spoke of tears

Pain and galore

They spoke of heartbreaks

People, and more 

And here it is, to the people I know

The frustrated

The empty

The mistaken foe 

Here's to the broken

Who cries every night

The infamous justified

Who won't go down without a fight 

Here's to the starving

The homeless 

The betrayed 

The ones who studied

But get a bad grade

Here's to the the beaten 

The bullied

The raped 

The one who has tried their whole life

To escape 

 

To the overlooked

The stepped on

The girl

Who is constantly compared to the world 

To gays

The lesbians

The insecure 

And supposedly

And the ones who are not sure 

The lost

The fighters 

And the victims of death 

And also

The ones who struggle for their last breath 

And lastly, 

This is to all the people that love to give

And to all the people who strive to live 

Lessons of Life- Poem

You told me a lot of things to remember

A couple of things of those were—

Life is a journey, a journey through time

Just wait for the ticking clock until it will chime

Love is the greatest feeling on earth

But loving someone who doesn’t love you just isn’t worth

Dreams are just like giving birds their wings

Incredible, just as a person opens their voice and sings

Fear always conquers a persons mind

Leaving them helpless, and blind

Hope will never fade if you never stop believing

Stand out proud and strong or your beauty will start concealing

Parents love you no matter how many times you fall

Memories of standing up for me, I can still recall

A bird trapped in its iron cages

Or even a man struggling to pay his wages

They will somehow find a way through it all

Gather up courage to break down that brick wall

Textbooks written, printed, and read

So boring and bland, like plain bread

Things that happen for a reason can’t be stopped

Balance on stilts and you’ll never drop

What people want these days are Mac books and I pods

Slowing down their education and belief in gods

Money now is what people seek

Not knowing too much greed will finally leave you weak

A hundred words are equal to one touch

But love can be expressed in many ways such—

Warmth of a touch, those kind words

The silly jokes that seem absurd

The endless care you give to the person you love

Like raindrops falling non-stop from above

Trees that always grow up to the sunlight

Peace that seem to always end the fight

Sounds of children echoing around

So lively, cheerful— what a sound!

Softness of grass beneath your toes

The circle of life, that’s how it goes

The dancing of people around the camp fire

The education of each person has to acquire

The hope of being who you want to be

The wanting of blind people to actually see

The way to survive in a land full of hate

To walk to heaven, past that silver gate

To go against the desire to sin

Giving in your best, you’re everything to win

All the lessons in life, that’s what you need to know

Lastly, if you love someone…never let them go.

I posted this on facebook years ago when I spke lyke dis and it was awkward.  :-)

And today was National day, many people did so many things. ❤ Great day after watching The Conjuring. Scary movie but eh.. Ciao!

Love and Death- Poem

Her eyes were black, deep and dark

Her smile left his heart beating with mark

His favorite color was blue

She gave him blue every year because she knew

They were double, a black and white

If he was the width, she would be the height. 

She was decent, childish and young

She was witty, always catching him with her tongue

He was a friend, so loyal, so true

But whenever she was with another guy,

He turned from yellow to blue

They were together, from bottles to school

He wanted to say "I love you", but he would be a fool

She was a girl, who loved him just the same

But to confess your best friend, that would be insane

So they lived life together, on and on

Neither did they know, one of them will be gone

Up from kinder, middle, to high

They had countless conversations, never ending with a "bye"

He watched her from the window, from afar, never near

She would speak to him casually, never sweet, because of fear

One day they graduated, off going to different paths

Each never saying anything with hidden wraths

They were angry, at themselves for no words

They saw themselves different, jocks and nerds

So the guy met a girl, and the girl met a guy

They were now both distant, like the ground and sky

They never talked, but the love was there

They just overlooked their feelings of lust and care

Their partners never knew was what going on

They were a picture of love, but rashly drawn

One day the guy was about to get married

He decided to throw away all the feelings he had carried

He stood in his suit, both happy and sad

From this day onward, he would be a delighted lad

He had a beautiful wife, money he could spend

He will be happy, he won't have to pretend

But when he was about to walk out the door

He saw a pair of shoes click against the floor

He looked up and she was there

So beautiful, so lovely, so fair

His heart stopped, and he did not know what to do

He didn't know what he was feeling, he didn't have a clue

"You didn't tell me." She said, so sad but with a smile on her face

"You never asked." He answered, giving her an embrace

"I miss you." She replied, not knowing what to say

"I miss you, every minute, every hour, every day."

He paused and saw the tears in her eyes

"I miss you too, don't be sad otherwise.

You'll be happy, like I will be

One day, you just wait and see."

She shook her head, "But are you happy like you say?

Are you able to go out there and walk down that hallway?"

He nodded at her questions but couldn't say a thing

He knew he still loved her, he wanted her to be the queen-while he the king

But they drew apart when called for by his wife

He moved forward, prepared for a new life

Then the pastor did the same routine

He saw her at the back, looking so young, like a teen

"I do" He said, taking the ring

As he put it on, the chorus starts to sing

They kissed, and he felt that it wasn't right

Will he go on with this, or fight? 

But when it was done, he went to look for her

Confused, with mixed feelings, and blur

She was no where to be found

When he was attracted to a sound

It was her mother, who came up to him

Crying, her tears filling to the brim

"She loved you, you know. She wanted to come

She loved you so much, your heartbeat was your drum"

"But where is she, why isn't she here?"

He asked frustratingly, nothing came clear

"She's gone, she wanted me to tell you.

Her fight gave way, and she went through.

She wanted to call you, but she was scared

She wanted to take you away, but the thing was that she cared.

She said you looked happy, with your new wife

She sacrificed her guts, her insides were in strife

When she got cancer, she told me that she wanted you to know

How much she loved you, and wanted you so

She said you were smart, handsome, and cool

She would sit by the doorway just to see you sit at the pool

She would do so many things, but she thought you were happy

So she waited until the day, then sadly

She gave way, she couldn't hold her breath

Now she has a new lover, and that is death."

The guy blinked, it was all surreal

His heart started breaking, it would take time to heal

He knew he loved her, but what could he do?

He was stuck with someone alive, someone new

That night he made love one last time

Little did his wife know, he would commit a horrible crime

At the strike of midnight, he grabbed a gun

By morning, he was dead, no chance to see the sun

In the end, his wife died inside as well

She stored her misery inside, like a bottled shell

Then the misery passed on, from one to another

Mother, father, sister, brother

This is what love can do to you

Colors, red, white, black, and blue

Rock- Poem

It was a rock

Ignored, thrown around

Useless and unknown

Often disregarded

By the grass, the trees

The sun and the moon 

But it was a rock

Just a rock

Still a rock 

It was rough

Not pretty, or smooth 

Or needed by the elements of nature 

People would look at it, and turn away

Some would pick it up

And throw it far far away 

But it was a rock

Just a rock

Still a rock 

Through time, 

It travelled the world

It saw things, many couldn't see

The pain of the beggars 

On a cold winter

The happiness of street dogs,

Nipping on bread 

The thirst of a sparrow 

Battling a drought 

The hope of a child, 

On a Christmas morning

It witnessed

But it was a rock

Just a rock

Still a rock 

Through time,

Things changed

Storms raged 

Life reveal death 

And love ended 

With a goodbye 

The trees disappeared

The grass wilted

The sun and the moon

Were covered by clouds

But it was a rock

Just a rock

Still a rock 

It was stronger 

Than the trees

Harder than 

The grass 

Much more constant

Than the sun and moon

Through time, 

It became smaller

Scattered all around the world

Each peice held a memory 

But it was a rock

Just a rock

Still a rock 

And that rock

Survived through 

Everything that passed 

It was proud 

To be a rock

Just a rock

Still a rock 

Just A Heart- Poem

She was a girl 

of no brains

No beauty

No talents 

Just a heart

She was girl 

Of no expectations

No wants

No needs

Just a heart 

She was a girl 

Of no luxury

No riches

No gold

Just a heart 

But she was

A girl whose heart

Was pampered 

with emotions

She felt the love of her parents

The true of her friends 

The hate of her enemies 

The discipline of her teachers  

She was  

A girl with nothing

Just a heart 

God- Poem

He was there, a smile printed on his pale face

So pure, so lovely compared to all human race

She stood there silent, not knowing what to do

Because the person in front of her, why was he there, she had no clue

He extended his arms and opened them wide 

As he did this, her tears started to form, in his arms she cried

She was scared, terrified of what life could do 

Because after every problem, she was losing the will to pull through 

And in her ear, he tenderly said:

"Don't worry, child. Listen to what I say:

What ever happens, I'll be with you along the way 

I know life is hard, but you will survive 

Work hard, don't give up, and strive

I have many people under me, and I tell them the same thing

If you are a bird, I'll be your wings 

Some may not listen, some may not care 

But whatever they all think, I'll still be there 

Life is life, just hold my hand

I'll give you strength, the will to stand 

If you fall, I'll won't let it stop 

Life is about experience, you'll learn from the drop 

All those scars? They'll disappear in time

Wait until it comes and the right clock chimes

You are not alone, and will never be 

I know it's hard, but one day you'll see." 

She wiped her tears and looked up at his eyes 

He was lovely, kind, powerful and wise 

He kissed her on the cheek, his warm lips against her skin 

After that, withdrew and gave her a grin

"Tell me when you're ready, and I'll guide you through

All those ripped pieces? Start picking them up, and sew 

Every stitch, is a stitch of hope 

Every step you take, will overcome that rising slope 

You'll be fine, I promise you. Just wait.

Let it go, and put it on the hands of fate" 

She nodded, stood up and blinked her tears away 

He'll be there for her, no matter what, everyday 

But when she looked up, he was gone

Where did he go, she did not know

But he was there, through the high and low

He watched her from above the clouds

Because one day, this girl, would make him proud..

Wrote it in the midst of the night, 12:51 yay. :-) Goodnight guys.